*sighs*
What can I say - Doesn't it sometimes feels like the whole universe is out to get you?
*shrugs*
Sometimes I really do hate my life - or more accurately, I hate my lack of life Like those old nightmares when you're running at full speed but aren't actually getting anywhere - and the big bad monster that you can't see is just getting closer and closer while you're moving in slow motion...

Lost my job last wednesday. This sucks - a bloody recession and now no job Ok, so it wasn't the most inspiring thing I;ve ever done and required so little of my brain I'm seriously wondering if my brain has permanently fallen asleep - but it was good to me, the people I worked with were nice (which is a darn hard thing to find today) and those around me were nice too - even if my interaction with them was minimal it did have it's moments *chuckles*
Not much comfort in knowing that a LOT of other people in departments around the UK for my company has during the previous months been exactly the same shoes -

SO - what to do with myself now? *shrugs* Well - I'm trying to get back into University, which kind of fell by the wayside when my father died. This should be a good thing, shouldn't it? SO why can't I find any enthusiasm for it, whatsoever? And the people at the Uni I've been speaking to (not my old one, they know me and are absolutely wonderful) talk to me as if I was five years old and didn't know anything about academia *serious growl* assuming they actually bother to answer me at all. I think, after two different universities, on opposite sides of the globe and having gotten a third degree started (and sadly misplaced due to dad's death) I think I at least have the idea of how to go about applying down pat *mutters darkly*

I've gotten itchy feet again. I want to move countries...but this is proving a little trickier than I would have liked. Now - personally I can pick up my bags, arrange for somewhere to live and get the rest of the stuff shipped with about as much fuss as blinking my eyes (though I'm sure you'd findit amusing to know that I can avoid for years to gointo a store I see everyday that I find interesting *rolls eyes* pathetic if you ask me) - but those darn immigration rules makes it a bit of a hassel, not to mention darn timeconsuming. Do you have any idea how hard it is to get a job when you're applying from the other side of the planet? Makes getting to interviews a little, how shall I put this, prohibitive...impossible?

Still thundering (or more accurately zombielike dragging my feet) down that ole road of life all on my little lonesome. I don't know if I even care about that anymore. Obviously nothing's ever going to change in that department, so maybe it's time I stopped kidding myself... I'm obviously completely and utterly unlikable to the male population *shrugs* kinda wish I knew what was so darn wrong with me...but guess I won't get that either.

ALso got a hint from my landlord that they'd like me to start thinking about moving out (they want to refurbish the rest of the flat). Now, they've got a two month cancellation of contract paragraph in the contract, but I don't particularly want to move anywhere - moving flats when you're trying to move countries is not my idea of fun).

Sorry guys - you probably want to read any of this stuff a lot less than I want to wrtie it - so I'll stop ranting...for the moment